linders! ...beagles?

I have aproximately 3 and a half weeks before i have to do anything productive with my time.
Its daunting.
completely overwhelming.
a little lonely.

and yet, there's no....noise?

My heart is a little heavy. and very, very impatient.
My entire life doesn't have to be engulfed in a chick flick, you know.
so why, why, why do i feel like I'm missing something when i have everything? absolutely everything i need is already in my hands. i just have to grasp it.
I'm trying to grasp it.
I dont know whats wrong with my hands.

Perhaps I will disappear for a little while. give away my anxieties. recheck my sincerity. find where my serenity really exists.
mm.yes.